depression starts

by Mia P., 17 (she/they)

Turritopsis dohrnii, also known as the immortal jellyfish, is a species of small, biologically immortal jellyfish found worldwide in temperate to tropic waters. It is one of the few known cases of animals capable of reverting completely to a sexually immature, colonial stage [polyp] after having reached sexual maturity as a solitary individual [medusa] [when threatened or starving.]

at larvae
to polyp
then medusa

fully grown fringe dangle
stringing through arabesque lines
desolate bells bubble

freely flowing among fluorescent fish
the jaw of a turtle
locks onto my head

and forces me to the solace of the ocean floor
hydrostatic pressure keeps me still

i become sediment
rotten coral
breaking 
unable to feel 
the deconstruction of my cells

i wash away
the look of decaying cassiterite eyes
watching free figures pass by 

the current wants to take me 
but i am safe here

larvae 
polyp
medusa
again and again

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