i want

by Isabella P., 15

I don’t want to be the only one
who fears the end.

I don’t want to look at the stars anymore
without knowing their names.

I don’t want to keep listening
to rap music
just because it’s what you listen to.

I don’t want to flip myself around
when I see you walking
in my direction.

I don’t want to dance like that.

Or wear my hair like that.

Or fall asleep visualizing fantasies
that will never come true.

I don’t want to want things
I can’t have.

I just want to want what everyone else wants.